update #14

After Abby death, I realized there's no way to fight these monsters. They are the puppet master and humanity is their puppets. They are ancient, but new. When they have manipulated our history for their whims. Why do they need us? Why did we watched that show? If I never watched the show, would I be a happy man with my wife and daughter? The more I research, the more different monster are. Legion and the faceless thing are one of those, but they are so many different cases.

The grinning man, while human is described as a monster. Always laughing, never blinking. Has never been caught. It sad. He has reported kills of 12 people, no discrimination of race, age or even wealth. There's also the fable Seed Eater from a small town, a thing that has been there for centuries that returns every so season, to kill, to breed.  The word Zalgo is related to a cult, to summon the one behind the veil. Crazy lunatics that wants the world to burn, so it could flourish again. Secret organization, that becomes fables like SCP. A word that sometimes pops up during bizarre cases and conspiracy theories. One conspiracy theory that I found was, the Russian experiment to capture some energy source or the continuation of those same experiment with the American during the Cold War.This world is full of crap, I'm just an ex-soldier.

I feel privileged to be involve in that world, to realized that us human are nothing but playthings to them. Sending me messages in binary or in different languages just to fuel my insanity. My depression, but this is my resolve. I will save whatever it's left of my daughter, I know now, that she isn't completely mine. She must have been tortured, mutilated and raped by super duper slender thing.  I prefer her to rest in peace than to be a ploy in their schemes.

update #13

She finally call me. I meeting with her on Friday after work. Let's see if she have something new to give me.

update #12

I went to the school. I find out, she should be around 12 years old now. She stop going to class around a year ago, they didn't know why. They said she was a bright student, my baby girl, why did they do this to me.  To her. Doesn't matter. They said that they kind of forgot they had her as a student in their school. Actually, is when I asked about her that they remember her. They didn't say that, but their reaction to her name, told me everything I needed to know.

My contact hasn't contacted me back yet. I'm crosssing my fingers that she eventually helped me, again.

update #11

She finally answered me She accepted my apologies. She said she would contact me again soon. I feel a bit happy for that. I just been in a depressed mood ever since I realized my daughter's existence. Legion hasn't done anything else since. They already stab me with a hot dagger in the heart. Twisting it, so I could bleed everything out. They won that battle.

update #10

I  need to contact her. I hope, she have forgiven me for what I did.

update #5

I just got back home from custody. Yippe, I got a court date. I'm tired as fuck. The accountant. No, he can't be. They looked the same, talked the same. Hell, they have that stupid cocky, but irritating attitude. Who was that little girl I saw in the rooftops? Why did it showed up as well?  I just don't know anymore.

Update #4

I've asked my coworkers, if I have gone out or done something weird during my blackouts? Of course, I omitted the word "blackouts" and I didn't mentioned the incident that happened with my other co-worker. Even though, they know already. They said I haven't done anything out of the normal, that I been just sitting on my desk doing work. The only surprising thing was that I was humming a beat. Now I believe my blackouts aren't related to them and could be only my stress and paranoia. Well, I'm going to the company's accountant tomorrow. So far, everything is mundane and normal.

update #3

I just got a call from the psychiatrist's office. They wanted me to confirm my appointment this Friday. I said yes and before I could ask about Brandon, they hang up. Is Brandon still alive? So what was that other day incident? They did say he was a fail-safe. I will find out Friday, at least he is somehow alive.

update #2

I need time. Memories rushing in my head. I need to piece it all coherently. I just need time to relax. I will publish the rest soon. Sorry.

update #1

Someone wrote on my notes. I believe it's the young man, bastard. He doodles around my notes and wrote a message behind the paper. " Stop fooling around and try harder remembering. You could do it, our little tin ex-soldier." He is mocking me. Why does he want me to remember? What is the importance of his message? Why didn't he just write it down? I know why, it would be practical for him.